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Five Minute Friday – Grow

Five-Minute-Friday-4-300x300Welcome to this week’s edition of Friday Minute Friday!
This week’s theme is “grow. To learn more about Five Minute Friday, please visit Kate’s blog for more details… Each week, a community of bloggers come together with the common goal is to spend five unedited minutes to write on a topic.

Growing Up in Christ

“Instead, we will speak the truth in love, growing in every way more and more like Christ, who is the head of his body, the church (Eph. 4:15).”

This summer, I know I need to be deliberate- if I want to see growth in

~  my love relationship with my Savior Jesus Christ.

~ the area of writing, and honing this gift God has given me.

~ the kind of relationships I have with other believers in Jesus Christ.

~ the treasure discoveries I make, as I study Jesus and His Word.

Growth Steps

If I want to grow, I must be deliberate.

So, I am taking steps. Because, I do want to see that growth.

Here is what I have been doing.

♦ Studying Philemon and Jude for the month of May (join us on Instagram and Facebook using the hashtag #GOScriptureWriting).

♦ Writing up a Scripture Writing Journal for a 6 week plan using the book of Ephesians (stay tuned its release date! My hope is to study it for the months of mid June/July – so )

♦ Keeping coloring books and utensils on hand, to keep me calm and focused on how to make the absolute best out of my days.

♦ Make writing a habit.

♦ Welcoming silence into my life. As an introvert with Dysautonomia, I know having that silence is a really important thing.

♦ Continuing to plug along in my exercise routine the best as I can. Some days, I have to skip a work out due to Dysautonomia/Pots. Other days, I have to journey at a slower pace. It is not about trying to lose weight, but see that growth as a person who faces health concerns that make exercise a difficult journey.

How are you pursuing deliberate growth in your life?

In Order…

In order to grow and become more like Jesus, I need to take proactive steps to make this summer one of tremendous growth – and – not a time of defeat and stunted growth.

I have no idea what this summer season holds in store for me. But, I do believe I am nearing a place of saying…

“I am ready. Whatever You will, Father. Let’s make this journey together! I am trusting You to get me through this, and to help me grow leaps and bounds as Your daughter and one who is following You as her King of Kings!”

Five Minute Friday – Easy

Five-Minute-Friday-4-300x300Last week, I had to skip over our FMF time. I was having a really hard week, and the writing prompt was the word – easy. Needless to say, I wasn’t feeling it. The last few weeks have been hard. This is the part that Annie overlooks when singing about the sun coming out… I didn’t feel like I had anything to share about “easy”.

However, I do – today. As a sufferer of chronic illness, I want to share a tool that has made my life easier.

Before I jump in to the one tool that has made my life easy, I want to share some information on Five Minute Friday. Each week, writers join together to write on a given prompt. Following our writings, we can come together and share on each other’s blogs. To learn more about FMF, click here. I have cherished each week I can join in this life-giving community!

My Mobile Tool –

A few years ago, I bought a beanbag on a whim. Turns out to be one of the best purchases I could make, for living a better life with chronic illness. It has really helped me in learning to live with Dysautonomia and POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome). One of my chief complaints (symptom-wise) is fatigue and body weakness.

For these purposes, the beanbag helps. With Dysautonomia, a person’s energy level can fluctuate from low to extremely low. This is where my beanbag steps in. It helps with that. It’s so nice to not worry about trying to hold/carry things – in order to use my laptop or begin my Bible study. I can use my beanbag to help me do every day tasks more functionally.

How I Use It?

It is my mobile desk. I can use it to lay in bed, and do my Bible study. Or, use my laptop. It is huge, for helping me to be able to write. I can use it as a place to set my food, if I need to. That way, I am less likely to fumble and drop food everywhere in my room (it has happened, and it’s a nightmare to try and clean up on low energy).

It is my foot rest. It has become very helpful, in helping me to keep my legs elevated during the day and at night. With POTS, keeping legs elevated in helpful in reducing symptoms and taking care of my body.

I can sit on it. Not so hidden use for the beanbag, I know. ::Smiles::

Best Part –

It’s portable and light-weight, so I can grab-and-go. 

Even if I am low on energy, I can still grab and go. My beanbag doesn’t have to stay in my room. If I want to go hang out on the living room floor with a coloring book, note book, laptop, etc, I am free to do so. So, for me, my beanbag offers me something else – freedom.

Provision –

God has definitely provided by giving me my beanbag. It makes a big difference, especially on the days of body weakness. I don’t have to try to hold things on my lap – because I can use my beanbag to set my laptop, books, Bible, notebook, or food on.

It’s inexpensive (we paid between $10-20), but it gets used sooo much!! (Not a day goes by, where it is not utilized in some way.)

It makes my life soo much easier, just by adding a beanbag into my daily life routine.

What makes your life easier, when you begin to struggle with low energy and carrying things?

Introvert Speaks: The Hang-Over

I am an introvert.

I recently “came out of the closet” (aka I keep writing about it). It’s not that my “introversion” is some brand spankin’ new discovery. It’s just that, writing is my primary way of processing e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. Writing is how I share my experiences, and who knows, maybe it will help another soul who feels like they are drowning. There is a remedy. We need to recharge our spirits. There is hope, and a way out of our introvert’s hang-over.

Friends and the Dreaded Word

You know… It occurred to me when I was writing last night that many don’t know what introversion is. I know there are in my life. I can say the word “introvert” and their exact response is “Whaaa?!?!?” At which point, I respond with “… nevermind, because if I have to explain it…”

Yeah, if I have to explain it. I am not sure that it will be worth the hard work of extra mental processing and emotional energy to relay the information… and then, possibly have more conversational pieces to decipher and process at night than I would care for.

So you see, it isn’t exactly personal.

I am going to take a slight detour from my introversion hang-over concept to explain it to you. Right here. Right now.

Not Weird, Just Wired Differently

According to an article from early 2011, there are about 25% of the generation population that are marked by introversion. But, there are probably much more. Some of us spend our lives wondering “… okay, what’s wrong with me? Why am I different?” Anyway, there is a small percentage. So your friends may not understand why a conversation or party can drain the life.out.of.you.

Introverts are wired differently than their friends who aren’t as close on the introversion-extroversion scale.

We are wired differently.

It doesn’t mean we are weird or somehow “not measuring up”.

We are simply different from others of different personality types.

Wired Differently

Introversion is just a way of describing our personalities.

Social situation can stress out our spirits, especially if we aren’t taking time afterward for silence (of some sort) and processing. Shear silence (again, of some sort… Introverts “recharge” different ways. I am not sure if lack-of-silence means you won’t “recharge” as fast… I just know recharging is of great importance, or I am a walking-chaotic-disaster-with-absolutely-no-filter).

We (introverts) need to go into hiding for a time. And, we likely have a variety of ways coping with our external stimuli (sounds, conversations, lights, or a number of other things).

The Hang-Over

External stimuli gives me what I will just refer to as “…an introvert’s hang-over.” No, I haven’t been drinking. No, my head isn’t throbbing. But, my spirit is just… done. It is overwhelmed. It is weighed down to such an extent, that I literally cannot think straight.

There is too much going on.

Things I haven’t taken the time to process.

I just haven’t taken care of myself  like I need to.

And, I am a milli-second away from letting my guard down and utterly losing it – all over everyone and everything. I am moments away from a few scenerios:

  1. Screaming unfriendly terms (possibly expletives) at those around me.
  2. Running far far away, to be alone.
  3. Crying my eyes out.
  4. Using my hands and feet to display the drowning of my spirit.

I am sure there are a lot of well-played out examples of what happens during “an introvert’s hang-over”. But a drowning spirit is the best possible explanation that I have to offer you, dear readers.

When You Just Can’t Deal

I simply can’t deal. I am doing all I can to keep my head and heart above water – just until I can reach that pivotal point of “plugging in” introvert style.

Tonight, this means…

  • Quiet praise music (I rely on Jesus Christ to keep me going. After all, He is my Prince of Peace).
  • Slow breathing.
  • Writing out my thoughts (hello, blog readers!).
  • Completely, empty space where I am alone to be with God and my thoughts.

Just quietly sitting by myself. I just can’t be about other things right now. I have had a long day. A loud day.

The Truth

Saying these things (like calling a day longloud, or drainingdoesn’t mean the day didn’t have absolutely wonderful and beautiful aspects to it. It simply means my emotional battery needs to be recharged – if I want to be able to function tomorrow and not risk an emotion system shut-down.

If I want to experience life at its best, tomorrow, I need to take the time to effective care for my own needs tonight.

Guilt

I have to take the time my spirit needs, without feeling guilty. Being an introvert can mean guilt. You know you need to recharge, or chaos erupts, but how do we do it guilt free? At night? When one should be sleeping vs. writing at midnight.

Reality At Its Finest

Today, I simply could not handle the excessive external stimuli. At one point, it took most of my resolve to merely sit at the kitchen table. alone.

Simply put, I was just done.

I felt overwhelmed.

I needed to plug in, because my emotional center’s battery was down to about 15% remaining. Which as we know. A battery’s percentage isn’t always an accurate indicator of when the device will actually die. Cuts it a bit too close when we are talking about not a technological device. Instead, we are talking about me.

In the middle of relationships.

Situations.

People.

Serving opportunities.

Worshiping Jesus.

I want to give God my best!

When I am drowning from neglecting to process my emotions and experiences, not exactly at my best. How can I give God, others, or myself my best when…

… emotions are heavy?

… self-control is clawing to hang on?

… I neglect me?

I need to recover from today’s “introvert hang-over”. The things I do in this moment, count greatly for how I can overcome the stuff of tomorrow.

Goals for May 5/17-23

Do: This week, I need to:

  • be deliberate in what I do. In the moments of lucidity and less fatigue, I want to be more deliberate in doing my soul-thing. The one thing that brings me the most joy, which, for me, is writing as I study the Word of God. For the past few weeks or month, I have struggled to get in the Word – as I battle harsh fatigue. I want to find a way to just get in the Word of God. To be present in my walk with God through Jesus Christ. I need to be deliberate in doing the thing my soul loves: being with Jesus.
  • wash dishes daily. I would love to stay caught up on dishes. The past few weeks, I have plummeted energy-wise. So, I haven’t been able to be consistent in having a clean kitchen or dining room. It all starts with learning how to keep our sinks from overflowing with dirty dishes. On the bright side, it’s just dishes.

Learn: I need to learn how to rest in new ways. In ways that benefit my soul, instead of merely giving me something to listen to.

Read:

  • Spiritually Strong by Kristen Feola , has been the one book I continually say I will accomplish this week. Will I finish reading it this week? Probably not, but I would like to pursue reading a chapter or two of the book this week.
  • In addition to this book, I would like to work on studying 1 Thessalonians, chapter 1. My goal is to have 2 sessions this week – with beginning to work through the 1st chapter.

Be:

  • Restful.
  • Prayerful.
  • Intentional.
  • Praiseful.

What does R-PIP look like this week?

  • Be intentional… to listen to praise music, as I rest and work.

Defined: Pip means an excellent thing.
To purposefully leave on praise music, is something excellent. It’s entertainment that will build up my spirit, and allow my spirit to overflow with joy. It draws me to my Creator, and allows me to know Him on a deeper level. Choosing to intentionally leave praise music playing, reaps eternal benefits – as I use it to seek Him.

Adrenaline at 2 A.M.

The last few nights, I haven’t been getting to sleep until well after midnight. Yesterday, it wasn’t until after 2am. Wanna guess what time it is? It is 2:12 in the morning. Wanna know why I am still up? I go to bed thinking about writing, editing, and the beautiful possibilities in store. Which brings…. adrenaline. Not Audio Adrenaline, just flat out adrenaline.

a.d.r.e.n.a.l.i.n.e
because we all want mental energy at 2 in the morning.
I actually love adrenaline.
I used to be an adrenaline junkie.
I just don’t love it so much at….ohh, say 2 am.

While new ideas are fantastic, adrenaline isn’t really all that fantastic. Not at 2 am. . . In perfect health I could totally make use of this time. While the melatonin made me tired, I am still awake. Awake and tired. Tired and awake. I make it a point not to edit or work on anything important – writing wise when tired, which is probably why things are left undone.

Today should be interesting.
I have a mental to-do list that’s too long.
But likely, will spend the day… doing what? Sleeping.
Glorious, beautiful sleeping.

And one day, I will get back into a rhythm of being asleep and before midnight. It may not be today or tomorrow, but one day… and very soon. I will. God is my helper, so I need to make this a prayer priority (alongside the new changes in store for Grace Leads). Speaking of praying, I am learning to be more prayerful with this insomnia. Blessing in disguise. I’ll take it. I need to be closer to Jesus. While I don’t love not sleeping, it will be worth it if I am more in tuned with my Creator.