Awkwardly Living Out My Life

Today has been adventurous. I had a stress test and a holter (heart) monitor placed on my chest a few hours ago. And, it feels like all I am truly capable of – is awkwardness. Have you ever found yourself in such a place, dear friend?

Instead of focusing on what I could potentially complain about, I just want to talk about being awkward for the glory of God.

Don’t change yourselves to be like the people of this world, but let God change you inside with a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to understand and accept what God wants for you. You will be able to know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect.

Romans 12:2, ERV

When it comes to acting awkwardly, or doing things differently from others, we need to remember those just might be the things that the Lord chooses to use the most.

Earlier, I opened the wrong “riding sharing” (Lyft, Uber, etc) car door. And there just so happens that a couple of people were getting out of the car. Now I could berate myself. “Why did I do that, Lord?!?!?” Or I could respond to myself with mercy, the kind of mercy our great God shows me.

The way others respond to me, in this moment, was kind. We spoke, laughed, and I wished them a good day, but they were just so kind about it. Kind like I should be, when I accidentally make a mistake.


Why is it we are so harsh to ourselves, when we can extend mercy? We need to love ourselves right where we are. Our great God has demonstrated love toward us, while we were still sinners (see Rom. 5:8). If God loves us where we are, why can’t we? It seems like trying to tear down a building.

Brick by brick, truth by truth, loving act by loving act, we need to live out our lives in a much better way. Our goal cannot be perfection. It has to be awkwardly living out our lives.

Because of the Good News of our Lord Jesus Christ, I can awkwardly live out my life. And as each day comes and goes, maybe, that self-induced shame and anxiety become a little bit less. Maybe, I am a bit more merciful to myself – as I learn how to be a follower of Jesus Christ who is authentic and loves her self so she can learn how to love others.

We will either become fixated on our awkwardness or the beauty that is found in coming to Jesus Christ. Our fear of awkwardness could cause us to not obey the Lord, because we are so afraid. My second awkward moment came, because I was not afraid. I chose to call up a loved one, because “what’s the worst that could happen?”

. . . Okay, so we only talked for literally a minute. But I chose to be brave and honor that holy –nudge to call my loved one and ask how they were.

I chose to follow Jesus Christ, even if it meant awkwardness. And, that’s what we need. We need to be willing to follow our Lord Jesus, even if it means awkwardly living out our lives.

Jesus Calling: Creative Coloring and Hand Lettering

Jesus CallingIn Jesus Calling: Creative Coloring and Hand Lettering, we are truly able to experience His peace and presence in a whole new way. If coloring is one of your favorite things, this is for you!

In this unique coloring book, we are able to enjoy heavy stock, well assembled coloring pages. There are more than 100 illustrations for us to enjoy.

I have loved my copy of this unique coloring book, and I think you would too – especially if you find coloring to be a relaxing treat. Coloring has put my anxiety at rest and helped me to find His peace and presence. Which makes coloring definitely a worship tool for me. These beautiful illustrations add to this already special time for me.

Having a time carved out to sit in His presence, and prayerfully utilize colored pencils along with this Jesus Calling inspired artwork – could be just the medicine you find yourself needing. Whether it is a positive distraction from chronic illness (which involves debilitating symptoms that we just can’t escape), mothering (while the kids nap, you can color and destress), or release from a hectic work day, this could be just the tool you find yourself in need of today.

I am thankful for the opportunity to read and review this coloring book for you all. This is something you definitely will want to consider having on hand, for those moments when you need to destress. It is a beautiful work of art by Jesus Calling and Coloring Faith.

Over on Amazon, we can find this high quality inspirational coloring book, geared toward adults, and very affordable for a faith driven coloring book like this one!

How about you, friend? Is coloring a tool the Lord has used in your life to help and keep you calm and focused on His presence? Share with me in the comments section below.

In Christ,

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Holy Spirit Infused Relationships {VOTD}

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law (Gal. 5:22-23, NKJV).

If we were to be honest with each other, we could say relationships are not easy. Sometimes, they can be the hardest aspect of our lives. Everything can be going along fairly well one day, until we have a conversation. A conversation we could spend years trying to forgive ourselves for. Or maybe, just a conversation that might wreck our day.

Lack of Fruit

In Romans 6:21, we are reminded that our sinful nature won’t produce good results. “But what good did you receive from the things you did? All you have to show for them is your shame, and they lead to death.”

We all can testify with our own stories of experiences, that. . . we don’t receive good things from our shame. Our shame filled words or actions have costed us something.

These kind of broken hearted relationships and conversations haven’t produced things like kindness, self control, or goodness.

We have good news. God can produce in our lives these very good things we crave. What we lack, God alone can provide!

God Directed

The Holy Spirit is in full control, able to direct our hearts, and give us these good gifts.

Even if these things aren’t on our “to do” list, it is on our great God’s. Because even in the worst of circumstances, God is always filled with the fruit of the Spirit in overwhelming quantities. These are very essence of who God is.

Loving Like Our King

Through being connected, we become more like Him. While it isn’t an instant process, it is surely one worth praying and waiting for. Let’s draw nearer to the Lord through opening our Bible, praying for our relationships, and seek more of Him.

As Christians we aren’t perfect, but the God we serve is! We are clothed in His righteousness, as we accept what our Savior Jesus has done for us. We are forever changed!

Through our Savior Jesus Christ, we “belong to Him who was raised from the dead in order that we may bear fruit for God (7:4).”

Friends, we have been radically changed by our gracious God who has given up everything for us. He wants to help us in our relationships. Let’s give Him access to these sometimes hard places.

. . . “For those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit have their minds set on the things of the Spirit (8:5).”

The Difference Maker

The difference in our relationships doesn’t come from us, but the One we have fixed our eyes upon. Through God and His Holy Spirit, our relationships can be different. Because of our great Savior, we can see a radical difference (see Galatians 5).

Because of Jesus, we can love those He has placed in our lives. Remember, “we love because He first loved us (1 John 4:19).”

How has the Holy Spirit helped you in your conversations and relationships?

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Image by Ben Rosett.

Friendships in Seasons {POTF}

15 This you know, that all who are in Asia turned away from me; of whom are Phygelus and Hermogenes. 16 May the Lord grant mercy to the house of Onesiphorus, for he often refreshed me, and was not ashamed of my chain, 17 but when he was in Rome, he sought me diligently, and found me 18 (the Lord grant to him to find the Lord’s mercy in that day); and in how many things he served at Ephesus, you know very well (1 Timothy 1:15-18, WEB).

This is a place in Scripture, which can comfort many of us. We all go through times, where friends can opt to leave us. And, it is a hard thing to experience. . . but this Scripture offers hope. The hope is found through our Lord Jesus Christ! He is our Provider.

While friendships do change over time, let’s choose to realize the Lord is able to give us people to “do life” alongside.


You might be going through a “friendship drought” right now. Hang in there, dear reader. Keep relying on the Lord and praying for Him to bring you friends who are choosing to follow Him – who can help you along your way. Dive deep into your friendship with the Lord Himself, and stay connected to your Church family – even when the relationships don’t seem to be there or anywhere. He is working.


How does this passage teach us about friendships?

1… Remember those who have chosen to stay, when everyone else has moved on.

2… Not only do we need to remember these friends, we need to pray for our friends.

3… Choose to be a friend who stays with others in the valleys of life. Choose to be a friend who stays and is there to help refresh others in the midst of their trials.

When facing our own trials, it can be difficult to be there for another who is going through their own storm. It is possible, but requires due diligence. The best way to “be there” is use technology to check on friends, ask how we can specifically pray for them, or send them an uplifting song we come across.

4… Take some time and search your own heart. How have you wrestled with feeling ashamed of someone or their trial? Paul was blessed with a friend who intimately knew our Lord Jesus – and wasn’t ashamed of his friend’s circumstances. Being unashamed helped Paul’s friend to be emotionally available.

5… Put effort into pursuing friendships. I am not talking about taking ourselves on a mission trip to contact everyone we have ever met. I am talking about practical ways to dive in a bit more to cultivate deeper friendships. This means choosing to focus on one or two friends, praying for them, and learning how to be more selfless (focused on them, versus dominating the conversation) – so we can be there for them.

Each of these things are designed to help our relationships. But something must happen first. We need to make our friendship with our Lord Jesus our top priority. Allow Him to refresh you, so He can give you all that is needed to be there for others.

In Him,

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Praise Before Panic {Inspiring Women}

Hi friends! For the months of May/June, we will be using a reading plan given to us by Sweet to the Soul Ministries. Feel free to stroll through their Facebook page and blog. They even have a journaling kit and Bible study for this month’s plan.

We can apply today’s Scripture to any area of life. While I was contemplating on if I was well enough prepared to write on this Scripture, I now know this is an important truth for any area of life.

Also it is not good for a person to be without knowledge, And he who hurries with his feet [acting impulsively and proceeding without caution or analyzing the consequences] sins (misses the mark). – Prov. 19:2, AMP

As I previously mentioned, I underwent a medical test. Any medical test can have the ability to be over-analyzed. I am thankful for the reminder to spend time considering my spiritual needs too. Before my big test, I sought out how to remain encouraged and Spirit-filled.

Typically, I prepare for specifics in regards to medical tests – by choosing a Scripture to focus on. Without this plan, I would be left in a dangerous spot. Without choosing to deliberately focus on our risen Lord, I might be unfriendly to the medical staff or inconsolable.

As I write this, I am in awe of what our God can do. Just as it is not good to act impulsively or fail to plan, we have to remember the goodness of our Lord. When I was placed into the MRI machine, I was not feeling very encouraged. To God be all glory, honor, and praise: He placed an ideal song on my heart. I didn’t belt out lyrics or move, but it encouraged my heart so much.

“Fearless” by Travis Ryan is likely one of the best songs to heart sing, in the midst of a medical test that is as tight in space as a coffin. It gets me a little bit emotional as I share this, because heart singing praise music isn’t something I would have expected. This was the best way God could have met me in the midst of my great need of remembering His presence and promise to stay with me.

Fearless, make us fearless | Give us courage for You are with us | Fearless, make us fearless | Come and mark us with Your boldness

God is in the details of our lives. While He was in total control during my medical test, I don’t want to consider my joy level had I not prepared.

Friends, let’s be lovers of Jesus who want to prepare and remember that we are forever His!

We need to seek His face and act wisely. Whenever we act impulsively, it can draw us away from our Lord and cause us to sin.

This is a testimony of how God meets us right where we are. Even in deep needs, God will meet us and act on our behalf – through His Holy Spirit.

Image by Shaun Frankland.