[10] Season of Waiting // Psalm 40

I waited patiently for the Lord;
    he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
    out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
    and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
    a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear the Lord
    and put their trust in him.

Psalm 40:1-3, NIV

I am not entirely sure, but I believe this is one of two Psalms I read to my Grandpa when he was first diagnosed with pancreatic cancer last year. Psalm 40 and 91 were the chapters I felt led to speak over my Grandpa. Reading these chapters didn’t mean that my Grandpa wouldn’t die. We all die at some point in our lives. [And he transitioned to heaven 6 weeks after speaking those verses and praying over him…]

In this chapter, we are given this beautiful scene of how our Mighty God can rescue us. I am holding to this concept today. I can become so stuck in my own circumstances, I need the reminder of our Savior Jesus Christ – being my Rescuer. He is the One who has continually rescued me. Day in and day out, our God saves.

The Lord continues to help me to not be stuck in my pits of mental and chronic illnesses. He helps me to have the strength to keep going, even when life becomes overwhelmingly hard.

And tonight, I am choosing to remember that He is my Rescuer – the One who saves me. This Psalm also meets us in a place of waiting. I did something, erm… ignorant, earlier this week.

Brain fog makes me prone to forgetting or misplacing things, and that was my mistake I have carried all week long. It was something special to me, so I sit and wait while I see what our God can do…

I am far from where I want to be in terms of my relationship with my Savior Jesus Christ. I want to be submerged in the Bible and prayer like I used to. I am just stumbling and trying to find my way back to that personal quiet time.

As I grieve, I have to remember how God has used me for His glory… and also, how He has used this chapter of the Bible, Psalm 40, in my own life. He has used this Scripture multiple times in my life.

I just need to let my soul soak up with this Scripture.

. . . even if I can’t remember what I read.

. . . even if I don’t have the energy to read or study in the first place.

. . . even when I struggle to make it to corporate Bible study time.

I have to remember who my Savior is, and how mightily He has worked in my life!

My life is tremendously blessed, even if I have the hardest time of my life in terms of getting into the Word of God. Getting in the Word lately hasn’t been easy, but. . . [go with me on this, I need a “but”] it is worth the effort even when it is the hardest thing in the world.

So if I only post one verse a day or every other day, it is okay. It is okay. I am seeking Jesus Christ. I am working on seeking Him with what I have to offer, even if it doesn’t sound like much.

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