Resting and Knowing My God

Resting is definitely how I am spending today. Resting out of need, not want. I don’t know how I will spend the day or what I will do throughout the course of my day or week (For example: I don’t know if I will get to open my physical Bible and read through or if I will get to write much). I am simply choosing to trust on a day like today, even when it isn’t so simple.

Now for my question.

How do you rest in a way that allows you to seek after our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ?

Today, I have it on a Christian playlist that YouTube recommended. I often need background noises to keep me content. So, it is a good way to have some kind of noise without it being something to detour me from Christ. Just going to lay here and think of our Risen Savior! Or try to keep thinking about our Savior, as I choose to worship Him with my day.

A family member posted this pretty bird on Facebook Isn’t it adorable?!

Friends: If He cares for the birds of the air, He most assuredly will care for our every single need!

This is why I tell you to never be worried about your life, for all that you need will be provided, such as food, water, clothing—everything your body needs. Isn’t there more to your life than a meal? Isn’t your body more than clothing? Look at all the birds—do you think they worry about their existence? They don’t plant or reap or store up food, yet your heavenly Father provides them each with food. Aren’t you much more valuable to your Father than they? So, which one of you by worrying could add anything to your life?
Matthew 6:25‭-‬27 TPT

Neither photo is my own.

Immediate Friendship

I have been reminded of old friends, lately. I say “old friends” as a way to acknowledge that life seasons has taken us to different places. So, it has been years since we have truly connected. Leaving me feeling like we have “broken up” in a sense.

Chronic illness leaves that effect on my friendships. We tend to end up parting ways whether due to their choice or just varying seasons.

And, it is hard.

And, I miss them terribly.

. . . However if there is anything I have learned about chronic illness and friendships, you cannot just blurt out “I miss you. We haven’t spoken in years.” and expect a warm welcome of “me too.”

I want “Jonathan and David” kind of friendships, where we allow ourselves to take part in vulnerable, risk taking, friendships. I know, they were not without their share of problems. But, they showed each other just how much they cared for one another. Ya know?

1 After David had finished talking with Saul, he met Jonathan, the king’s son. There was an immediate bond between them, for Jonathan loved David. 2 From that day on Saul kept David with him and wouldn’t let him return home. 3 And Jonathan made a solemn pact with David, because he loved him as he loved himself. – 1 Samuel 18:1-3

These two men became immediate, amazing friends. Now for us today, we may not be someone who makes immediate friends. A lot of us have to work very hard and stay prayerful about this need in our lives, because we don’t have that many people in our corner – cheering faithfully for us!

But, I love the reminder of our God’s greatness and He can bring amazing Christ centered friendships into our lives! There is nothing too hard for our God. So even though I get heavily discouraged about my lack of strong friendships, I need to lift my eyes to the Heavens, and remember He is able to bring amazing friendships into my life.

I need to scroll through His Word, rather than social media.

Here is a good place to debunk the idea that they were more than friends.

In Christ,

Praying for Others

It feels like my body is having a temper tantrum. You know, the kind? Maybe like when we were a kid, and Mom said no to a favorite snack.

This is my clear reminder that I need to pray more for others. I need to pray more anyway, but must learn to be more gracious to others.

This is day 2 of flared up symptoms, and it is worsening y’all. I am needing prayer to stay close to our Savior Jesus during this time. Also, I need prayer as I navigate how to best plan for my blog given my severe health limitations these days.

Thank you for praying and being here!

[13-14] Don't Grow Weary!

How can you/we do this, friend? Not legalistically, just realistically combine our faith in our Savior Jesus Christ, the beating heart in our chest, and whatever mindset we have to offer. How can we give ourselves to our King of all Kings, and honor Him with our lives.

Lately, I have been reading through the Psalms and Proverbs reading plan. Even though I haven’t posted my experience the past few days. I have started sitting with my Bible and twistable colored pencils, aloud reading to remember His truth and promises. And this is how I can live out Gal. 6:9.

[12] Prayers Availth Much!

Please pray, friends. PTSD is… well, it is a bit too rough tonight for my preference. Thank you in advance. ♡ Prayers availth much. Right?! James 5 teaches us this.

Tonight was a blessing in the midst of a hard place. I was able to actually read my Bible and highlight things that stood out to me. I was able to read all of it aloud, which I often cannot do without my body doing something to try and stop my time with our Mighty Savior Jesus Christ!

One of my favorite things from today’s chapters (Psalm 12, 42, 72, 102, 132, Proverbs 12) was: God knows, sees, and give us our VALUE. Our lives are valuable! And He wants to give us the BEST care possible!

I am reminded of the joy I can receive through reading the Word. And I can go from a profoundly heavy heart to a heart that doesn’t feel as heavy.

One of the reasons for my PTSD flare up is – I lost my journal. The journal Grandpa gave me, before he passed. I couldn’t find it anywhere. As I was writing this to pour out my heart, a dear friend found it tonight at church. I have my grieving journal again.

Maybe your trial isn’t as easily removable like chronic pain or mental health issues that hit your soul like bricks going through a glass window…

Together, we will walk toward our Savior Jesus, learn how He rescues us and carries us through the hard things we must endure.

I am here for you, friends.